i didn't know it until i went in today, but this was my last day of going to the chiropractor for my car accident case. i got in that accident on january 4th. over 5 months of treatment later i'm finally done. at the same time though, my back isn't even close to being back to its original state. my back still hurts, i still get pains in my neck and every once in a while i get headaches from my neck being fucked up.

it's been one long fucked up painful ride. i lost my awesome subaru that had decent speakers in it, and had fucking remote start and a badass alarm. i did get a decent car though, and one fucking amazing drumset.

i just want to get it settled and out of my life for good. some money woud be nice to get out of this whole situation, seeing how my back is pretty much fucked for the rest of my life.

no california for me. i told myself that i wasn't going to move down there if i didn't have a stable beginning down there. it's way too much stress to move to a completely different state and have to find a job to be able to afford an apartment. jamie's grandma doesn't want me to live with her, and that's fine. i have such a good life up here. i have good friends. good family, all of my family. i've had ten million good memories and times up here, and i'm sure i'll have ten million more. i'm not going to move away from this great life only to be bombarded with stress, it's just not the way i do things. that's how i end up having complete mental breakdowns. so i'm staying. i'm going to start looking into voice acting up here. i'm going to be the next billy west.

and that's that.

-randy